The man of my Dreams

The man of my dreams

The man of my dreams is moody

He tries to find escape.

The man of my dreams loves his personal space

So he wants me not to disturb him in any case.

The man of my dreams is moody

And whenever I ask for love he says you are too croody 

The man of my dreams once fought for me

And now he fights with me.

The man of my dreams used to make me feel important

Things changed and now I am not that important.

Is he really man of my dreams

One day I questioned myself

Is he really the one I sacrifice myself for.

Is this really love .

And you know what came back to me 

The mountain , valleys ,Adam and eve all came up together to me

And whispered this is life let it be.

Again , I went to the man of my dreams and questioned do you love me and hd said why not.

The man of my dreams is crafty as he is well off with the words.

Again I believe him and let things go.

A day comes when I get changed 

Not the trees neither the valleys but I , myself feel a change.

I bewitched him and betrayed him.

I stop loving the man of my dreams

As it is justice to stop loving.

Eventually I came to know that I have stopped smiling.

Then gradually I start looking pale

And then my body starts to became Numb and then I end up this incarnation with a promise to myself that never love again as love makes you morsel.

I stop breathing , people cry at my funeral and I stay like a dandy fish stinking as a corpse .

I regret why I loved him .

The guardian angel drags my spirit and I say , I want to live.

The guardian angel drops me down and suddenly I wake up.

It was a dream which end up with a lesson.

Care for the one's who care for you.

People will come and go but you yourself have to bear it.

Thought 122

Thought 121

There is no right stop to search for happiness ,it's  innate ♥️

chastity to Entity

                          chastity to Entity
The heart quenches for affection,
The world waits for suspension
Though the life is joyous but what about the bloody tensions.
Each day a part of me is learning,
To be souped up or to be mesmerized.
The pain strengthens the motive ,
And makes me a mortal.
Trafficking  of ideas getting taunted,
Oh ! God my life is forbidden
Real virtues hidden .
Fighting a battle within myself
To become surpassing .
Is this the right way or else now failure is welcomed.

Poem 8 :Partial deployment

Don't wait for anyone to bring u sunshine , Don’t wait for things to go right , 

dont hope for good things keep  it going
Don’t wait for truths live in lie,
Don’t wait for happiness better wait for suffice,
Don’t be emotionally  attached better leave them,
Don’t be weak u r a warrior
Have guts to hold yourself
It’s  going to stand behind you to pay you back
Create your economic stability so that u may not rover around,
Make yourself happy hang out,
Don’t love when not wanted,
Don’t talk when not bothered,
Just forget everything and give it a start
Live with the dormice you created
Dip yourself to dirt ,flith
Don’t forget karma is brace,
Wait for the world to drop,
Wait for the things to work,
Don’t befool yourself in case of others,
Be truthful and stop being the laughing stock.
Don’t love people who don’t need to be loved.

Chorus

Time turn six
I wish to act like a dandy fish,
Time turn seven
Hurriedly went on with the gerund,
Time turn eight
Non happy facies wait,
Time turn two

Wish to be back to room,

Time turn three
Spend some time with infant carefree,
Again time rolled,virtues hidden.

Shut up !

The Most difficult thing is to shut up , and stop speaking when u cant explain , cant express becomes intentionally spellbound , this is the most difficult thing to not speak how u like , may be will develop patience but by killing myself , for next time u need to remember that never u have to talk so freely that u will be pointed out , it is better to ignore everyone , I am all alone no one to support or to discuss with , I closed all d doors for myself , I am a fool yes I am that’s why I ought to suffer , lost identity. , lost expressiveness just being maid to love , fuck everything will search for new happiness , will learn to be loud and reply back it may lead to conflict but I will be satisfied why it is me , who has to go to all this . I didn’t expected this from life whatever it is , it may ought to happen maybe that’s why its happening , spellbound , unsocial bird with little freedom , will definatly one day count all the wires which bound me and fly up high , I know I m never wrong and fucking stop my comparison , u will just end up losing everything from u .unfortunately no one can read and take all this pain with me .